Thus are the Holy Spirit’s lesson plans arranged in easy steps, that though there be some lack of ease at times and some distress, there is no shattering of what was learned, but just a re-translation . . . (T-31.V.9:1)
Though from time to time I wish I were less wordy – and dream almost always of a wordless state – it is more and more clear to me that wordiness is the way, at least for me, this time around, and so I am working on complaining less – and worrying less – about it all and just writing. That seems best. As Augustine said, “love and do what you will.” Or something like that.
Writing about A Course in Miracles has always been the primary way that I learn A Course in Miracles – both at the level of the intellect and at the level of application, where the rubber hits the proverbial road. Often, it is only after writing that I learn what Jesus is saying, and the way in which those words are unfolding in my life, and what I can do to facilitate the undoing process (hint: it almost always involves getting out of the way). One step both reveals and makes possible the next.
I sometimes joke that I started writing about the course about fifteen minutes after I started reading it but the truth is I’m not sure I waited that long. I trust writing that yields a generative impulse – that is, writing that makes me want to write – and A Course in Miracles has always been that kind of text for me. I don’t think Helen Schucman and I would have seen eye-to-eye on very much but my God could she turn a phrase. I fall in love with how a sentence sounds long before I give attention to what it says.
Anyway, my own writing with respect to ACIM has shifted and evolved over the years. Most of it is here, some of it is on other sites, and some of it – a fair amount actually – is tucked away in notebooks and hard drives here and there. Looking at it all I sometimes wish I’d been a bit more judicious or reserved but that’s not really my style. You do what you can and let the spiritual chips fall where they may.
Anyway, I have this little book I wrote called One or Two Steps Only. It’s about A Course in Miracles, as I understand and practice it at this point in my experience. Some of it was culled from blog posts, some from exchanges with other students, and some from recordings of study groups where I’ve been invited to talk a bit.
A big forgiveness issue for me – inherent in literally everything I do, from writing to loving to walking in the forest – is that I believe it is both possible and necessary to be right, and that there are consequences to being wrong. Indeed, at a level I don’t like to acknowledge, much less write about, it is my conviction that salvation means being right about God and thus favored of Jesus.
Thus, writing about A Course in Miracles – for me, for now – is about coming to understanding and application while simultaneously releasing the inclination to prove I’m right (which always means that you are wrong). That inclination can be quite subtle and so it takes a lot of attention and care. It also means accepting that from time to time I screw up. Inner peace isn’t about getting anything right but about letting things go – in particular, the sense that right and wrong are anything other than pesky illusions.
Thus, offering a book about A Course in Miracles is really just another step on a particular forgiveness path, one that I chose in a seemingly ancient past, and to which I now clumsily give attention, in the interest knowing again the wholeness of the God-lit Mind. Being helpful matters but helpfulness is often just a question of getting out of the way, letting God be God, and so forth. Have I said that already?
Anyway. Here you go . . . a little book about A Course in Miracles. I wrote it carefully, finding my way as I do – word by word – home with you. Perhaps you will like it; perhaps not. I’m glad you’re here in either case.