A Course in Miracles Lesson 87

I will there be light.

There is no will but God’s.

Sometimes the review periods pair lessons up in ways that make them feel very different than they did invidually. Or you have some new perspective on them because of learning that has transpired since you last saw them. At first blush lesson 73 and 74 can feel a bit distinct from one another – I certainly experience them that way while studying them one at a time. And when we view them back to back, they neatly dovetail with one another, the one helpfully shading the other.

In course terms, light is most often understood as understanding. It’s a metaphor. A lot of what goes on in our minds is “out of mind,” if you will. We might call it the subsconcious, we might call it projection or denial. It doesn’t matter. It’s hidden. We’re afraid of it and so we shroud it. When we bring it to light, we are allowing ourselves to actually see the thought or idea without rushing to shut it down somehow.

To will there be light is another way of saying that we aren’t going to keep secrets. We are going to be open to seeing ourselves with all our flaws. We aren’t going to pretend that we don’t have them, and we aren’t going to analyze them, and we aren’t going to freak out because we’re not perfect. Patiently and calmly, to the degree that we’re capable, we’re going to look at the inside. We’re going to explore our thinking – our habits, our conclusions, our conditioning, our framing. All of it.

That’s a tall order! And, in truth, it would most likely be futile if we weren’t joined by the Holy Spirit who rolls with our inconsistencies while keeping an eye on God’s perfection and stability. That’s why we need to be reminded that our will and God’s will are not separate. Thus, when we will the light of understanding, it is akin to saying that we are sharing God’s will for perfect communication.

We can only up this way because it is natural. It is heavenly. It is part of our divine inheritance, the capacity to explore our minds in order to free them from all forms of tyrrany in order to know perfect peace.

And, indeed, we are reminded that knowing there are no wills but God’s is immensely pacifying because it removes the possibility of conflict. Not in our experience of the physical world where people and ideologies and matter itself all appear to be in conflict, ever bent on collision. But at the deeper level, which is the level of truth, there is only peace. There is only God’s will. We can glimpse that in this space. We can perceive it – a perception of calm, gentle, happy quiet that is instantly translated into Heaven.

But what this review is really doing is bolstering our confidence. Bring light to yourself! And know that in doing so, you are merely agreeing with God that enlightening is helpful and necessary. It is what bridges the gap between us, ultimately teaching us that the separation is an illusion. A Course in Miracles answers the questions: who am I? What am I? It does this at whatever pace with which we are comfortable, ever reminding us that our union with God is not optional and requires no effort.

Light is our will. It is God’s will, too.

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  • Nadia July 3, 2012, 8:26 pm

    I love this reminder:
    “To will there be light is another way of saying that we aren’t going to keep secrets. We are going to be open to seeing ourselves with all our flaws. We aren’t going to pretend that we don’t have them, and we aren’t going to analyze them, and we aren’t going to freak out because we’re not perfect. Patiently and calmly, to the degree that we’re capable, we’re going to look at the inside. We’re going to explore our thinking – our habits, our conclusions, our conditioning, our framing. All of it.”

    I have particular trouble with not analyzing myself…sheesh, if only I can let that go more easily! lol. I’m trying to stay with HS on this, because I’ve certainly done a good job of confusing the hell out of myself. I see progress when I finally let it go to spirit, beyond my ego or even decision-making mind. I can only keep on gently practicing this, since it doesn’t come naturally…at least not yet for me.

    • Sean Reagan July 4, 2012, 5:46 pm

      Hi Nadia,

      Yes, I think “gently practicing” is the key. We’ve indoctrinated or conditioned ourselves to think a certain way about self – development, improvement, etc. On some level, it seems very healthy and important. Why shouldn’t I try to be a better father, a better writer, a better friend, whatever? Isn’t that going to make the world a better place? Yet that approach, despite moments of joy and some short term benefits, doesn’t seem to be truly effective. So it takes time. And letting go, too. It’s funny because on some level I want or expect spirituality to be smooth sailing with lots of gratification. But the course is so counter-intuitive! To really practice it is to be constantly going against what seems natural and easy. But it does get better. And there are certainly moments when I see how it all hangs together, in a deeper way, and that is so peaceful when that happens.

      Thanks again for reading – take care-

      Sean

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