Forgetting God Entirely

I am always being brought up short by beauty, by loveliness. I don’t know why. Thistle strung with spider webs makes me forget God entirely.

 

Every morning – often after sunset as well – I walk the same trails in the same forest I’ve been hiking and hunting and fishing and praying and writing in for forty some-odd years now. You think I’d get bored but the landscape is so complex, with so many folds and intimacies, it is hard to imagine a Heaven apart from it. What else is there but this? Attention of any kind redeems us: attention to the interior movement, surely, but there are times when what is external – the flowers, the rivers, black bears, the moon – seem somehow more internal than love itself.

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  • sally June 30, 2013, 1:55 am

    Talk about Conflict…..at our Nature Walk, last spring, when I saw a real spider web in the forest with water droplets clinging to the web, I had already forgotten God as I scanned the forest trees….and then when Holy Spirit Reminded me of my Lesson : God is but/only love and therefore so am I….. that helped a little, but at times I feel/think conflicting thoughts….that I’m not sure that I want to leave and lose, so many illusions, even if they seem to be idols at times…and then when the next Opportunity to Forgive and Love arrives, I’m ready to go HOME again asap.. Oh to finally wake up and end all conflict….thank you Sean for the help I receive from the Thoughts given to you and shared with us. :). .

    • Sean Reagan June 30, 2013, 7:20 pm

      Thank you Sally!

  • zrinka June 30, 2013, 7:08 am

    Perhaps it’s recognizing God Entirely 🙂
    I think these very moments lead as home. Moments when we are thought free, trusting and overwhelmed with beauty and warmth. In Heaven’s Garden. Attention to the interior movement is important, but it can eat away love, if we overindulge in thinking about our self improvement (which we do). We chose to close our eyes for a while, so that we can realize who we are and how we think. But if we shut our eyes forever, we miss a most important realization – that the flowers, the rivers, black bears, the moon are as internal as love 🙂 Thank you for sharing your flowers, rivers, black bears, moon, thistles and spider* It’s All Love and there’s Love in All*

    • Sean Reagan June 30, 2013, 7:10 pm

      hugs and a bow . . .

      thank you Zrinka . . .

  • Eric June 30, 2013, 9:27 am

    Hi Sean,

    I like what zrinka said and see it that way also. Sometimes when I get up for work and go out to the car, I find myself stopping and looking at the sunrise in quiet reverence as the birds sing their song to the world. I also sometimes find myself on a clear night looking at the stars in awe.

    For me, I don’t know if it is at these times that I forget God entirely, or if it is my problems, my ‘private thoughts’ and my little ‘self’ that I forget entirely. One of my most extraordinary ‘mystical’ experiences happened to me in one of these moments, when the feeling of observer and the observed blurred.

    For me, these are not times that I need to forgive for seeing the beauty in the illusion of form, but that I am actually looking on the world with forgiving eyes. When my mind quiets during these times, I realize that I am as the course says, at home in God, but have been dreaming of exile. I feel that is so important to remember. I AM AT HOME IN GOD. I AM AT HOME IN GOD. There is no need to ‘get to’ where I am already at.

    As the course tells us,

    Heaven is not a place nor a condition. It is merely an awareness of perfect Oneness and the knowledge that there is nothing else; nothing outside this Oneness and nothing else within.~ACIM

    Eric: There is kind of a curious statement in the course when it says,

    “Heaven and earth shall pass away” simply means that they will not continue to exist as separate states.~ACIM

    Eric: This may seem a bit odd, because it is the idea of the formless and form coming together, or we might just pass it off as some random statement in trying to reconcile what the Bible says that doesn’t really mean what it says it does, but it could also be seen as the idea that there is nothing outside myself. There is nothing and no one separate from me. There is no separate ‘I’ and then a separate world. As Krishnamurti said, I am the world.

    I know I posted this on your other blog, but it seems fitting here also.

    “All this beauty will rise to bless your sight as you look upon the world with forgiving eyes. For forgiveness literally transforms vision and lets you see the real world reaching quietly and gently across chaos and removing all illusions which had twisted your perception and fixed it on the past. The smallest leaf becomes a thing of wonder and a blade of grass a sign of God’s perfection. From the forgiven world, the Son of God is lifted easily into his home. And there he knows that he has always rested there in peace. Even salvation will become a dream and vanish from his mind. For salvation is the end of dreams and with the closing of the dream will have no meaning. Who awake in Heaven could dream that there could ever be need of salvation?

    How much do you want salvation? It will give you the real world, trembling with readiness to be given you. The eagerness of the Holy Spirit to give you this is so intense He would not wait, although He waits in patience. Meet His patience with your impatience at delay in meeting Him. Go out in gladness to meet with your Redeemer and walk with him in trust out of this world and into the real world of beauty and forgiveness.”~ACIM

    There is another curious statement about Heaven in the Manual for Teachers section that seems to tie in the statement about Heaven and Earth will not continue to exist as separate states.

    And finally, there is a “period of achievement.” It is here that learning is consolidated. Now what was seen as merely shadows before becomes solid gains, to be counted on in all “emergencies” as well as tranquil times. Indeed, the tranquillity is their result—the outcome of honest learning, consistency of thought, and full transfer. This is the stage of real peace, for here is Heaven’s state fully reflected. From here the way to Heaven is open and easy. In fact, it is here. Who would “go” anywhere if peace of mind is already complete? And who would seek to change tranquillity for something more desirable? What could be more desirable than this?~ACIM

    Eric: While the Real world is still an illusion, like forgiveness, it is an illusion that leads us towards our awareness that we already are at home in God.

    • Sean Reagan June 30, 2013, 7:20 pm

      Thanks, Eric. Yes, Zrinka almost manages to take me to the level I meant to reach. More and more I feel I write here simply to attract my teachers.

      Beauty . . . I have the sense when I read Dickinson that she could never quite settle the space between the Heaven of the bible (which was dear to her, in her way) and the world she perceived – and eventually subsumed in an interior way. There is a complicated and subtle movement that happens when we are so taken by loveliness that the obviously conscious or egoic (or whatever label one wants to use) abruptly stops. For me, the subsequent analysis almost always fails to get to it, and yet I try.

      That, by the way, is where – for me – Bohm and to a lesser extent Krishnamurti – are so helpful. Bohm was able to write very clearly about the process of thought – the mechanical process and then the deeper subtleties – in a way that somehow sheds light on what is going on.

      Yet this also evokes the “overindulgence” that Zrinka was talking about: the tendency to drift towards improvement and analysis and thus miss or diminish the essential experience of the blending/blurring of internal/external. It’s hard to write about this stuff, of course, and sometimes I question the wisdom of it altogether. But obviously I don’t question it too much . . .

      Hope you’re well. And by the way – sorry you’re not closer so we could grab a cup of illusory coffee.

      Sean

      • Eric July 1, 2013, 7:59 am

        BTW, I’m kind of a bookworm and have pretty much gone through all the books I have for the moment. The only book on Bohm I have is the one with J.K. Do you have any recommendations? I might be interested in checking him out further.

        • Sean Reagan July 1, 2013, 9:43 am

          Hey Eric.

          My favorite Bohm book is On Dialogue. It’s short but rich and neatly sums up his thinking. I reeled when I read it the first time. You know, he’s a physicist and not particularly interested in the religious questions, but it really felt resonant with the course to me. It still does. The other book is On Creativity, which takes some of those ideas a little further. Those are the two – outside of his dialogues with Krishnamurti – that have been most helpful to me.

          Also, I am currently working my way through The Limits of Thought: Discussions, the other Bohm/Krishnamurti dialogue book. Have you read it? I find it much more dense that The Ending of Time, but those two were really doing something quite amazing in their talks.

          • Eric July 1, 2013, 8:17 pm

            Hi Sean,

            Thanks for the titles, I haven’t The Limits of Thought yet. Sounds interesting. I’ve been taking Qigong, so I am currently reading a book on different exercises, breathing techniques, visualizations, and meditations. But I always have room for a Krishnamurti book, LOL. I do want to read one of those Bohm books first though.

            Thanks again,

            Eric

  • Eric July 1, 2013, 7:55 am

    Hi Sean,
    You wrote: It’s hard to write about this stuff, of course, and sometimes I question the wisdom of it altogether. But obviously I don’t question it too much . . .

    Eric: I wouldn’t worry about it too much. It’s just one way we can try and get that finger pointed toward the moon. As long as we all realize (and I believe we do) that the writing is not the moon. 🙂

    Well considering I live in Seattle and you’re on the East Coast, it maybe a while before we get that cup of coffee, but you never know. 🙂 I’d like to get it to go, so I can drink it while walking some of these wonderful sounding trails you always speak about.

    Eric

    • Sean Reagan July 1, 2013, 9:44 am

      Indeed!

  • zrinka July 2, 2013, 3:25 am

    Dear Sean, thank you for your kind words. You inspire me too and I learn so much from you and your readers:) You are a jewel on the Web, or rather the morning dew on the web (strung on thistles). Loving, humble and sincere.
    Also, nature is a great inspiration. Like you, this year I enjoy flowers and woods even more. One Croatian writer and poet, Matoš, loved nature his whole life and said that, ‘Nature is visible connection of our soul to the mistery of life’. Well, it surely brings out the soul 🙂

    • Sean Reagan July 2, 2013, 9:02 am

      one of these days I’m going to ask you for a list of 100 poems that awaken the soul. might need you to translate them.

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