In his book Love is Letting Go of Fear, Gerald Jampolsky talks about our fear of love.
. . . we are often afraid of Love without consciously knowing it, and so we may act both deaf and blind to Love’s presence.
I think we could say – some of us – that A Course in Miracles is a learning tool that gently (though not always painlessly) raises our fear of love to consciousness. When we see it clearly, we are able to give it to the Holy Spirit in whose radiance it is simply shined away. But we have to give attention to it. We have to be willing to learn.
All healing is essentially the release from fear. To undertake this you cannot be fearful yourself. You do not understand healing because of your own fear (T-2.IV.1:7-9).
Of course, we don’t “give” something to the Holy Spirit the way we give our dogs a treat or send a bowl of soup back to the kitchen. We “give” by holding something in mind and allowing our whole mind – which includes the healed mind which is the Holy Spirit – to see it. This works for individuals we are angry at, for abstract problems like jealousy, and for so-called global problems like world hunger.
We have to face what is hidden. We have to look at what we keep secret. Only when we allow those fears to surface can we learn that they are not real and thus are without effect at all. When we look at our fear of love – or our fear of being replaced – or our fear of going hungry – they simply cannot be sustained. We learn that what we are in truth cannot go without love because it is love. And we learn that the Holy Instant is all the time there is and it is always – without exception or qualification – sufficient.
That plays out different for all of us because we are all projecting our own little horror show. Right now I’m getting clear on what I call a fear of love, which manifests as control issues: I want to write rather than talk, I want to be literary rather than chatty, I don’t want to be vulnerable here or there and so forth. It’s just the present form in which I am working out the simple truth that I am not separated from God. And when I am ready to accept that truth, then I will know only Love.
But until then, I – like you – am bound to the learning process. Today I put my arms around it. There is no other, no better way Home.