The world is good for forgiveness – for being seen without judgment, without the weight and grime of our egoic minds. That is our practice as students of A Course in Miracles: being willing to let go of judgment. Forgiveness has trust baked into it. We are letting go without knowing exactly where we’ll land or what is going to show up. We take it on faith.
One of the harder ideas to let go of is whether it’s working or not. Am I more awake than I was five minutes ago? Or more awake than that guy? It’s easy to say we’ll practice forgiveness. And it’s easy to observe ourselves as forgiving people. Here’s another forgiveness opportunity! Oh look – here comes another one! But if we are paying attention to what is going on in our thoughts, we see that we are still attached to the ego. We’re grateful for a chance to prove ourselves to Jesus. We still think there is something to get right. Isn’t it true?
Conflict ends when we no longer treat the world as our ethical or metaphysical playground, but rather see it as a fact that needs no interpretation and calls for no action on our part. We sit with forgiveness – we are passive with it. We are letting go of everything – from what shirt to wear in the morning to our feelings about being snubbed at work to our love for our children or whatever. I think it is the only choice we make: to have that willingness. Maybe we don’t even choose that. It seems to just be there, waiting.
I want there to be things to do that matter: feeding the hungry, voting for politicians who are commited to social change, all of that stuff. And it’s there – it’s all out there. But I have to come back to what it’s all for. I have to keep the Kingdom first and let the rest sift to where it will sift. The hardest part of all this for me is that there is really nothing to do. As soon as salvation is contingent on some action or commitment on my part, then it’s become a projection. It’s anchored in time. It’s something that I’m not but might become in the future, by dint of hard work or study or courage or whatever.
How can what is already perfect learn of its perfection? How can it become more perfect? As soon as I’ve brought it down to time and ambition, I’ve lost it. It’s not down the road – it’s here. Lesson 95 is utterly clear: I am one self, united with my Creator.
You are one Self, in perfect harmony with all there is, and all that there will be. You are one Self, the holy Son of God, united with your brothers in that Self; united with your Father in His Will.
It is a settled fact. It is not a goal – not a dream. It is already in place. You do not make plans to go to Boston while you are sitting in downtown Boston. You don’t think, Oh I have to find Boston. Or I have to invent Boston. You are there. It is accomplished.