We want to be clear about our illusions: we want to know them as illusions for that is the way they are undone. We are not seeking Truth – what is – but that which obscures Truth.
In a sense, we are trying to be clear about that which presents itself as truth but it not truth.
The search for truth is but the honest searching out of everything that interferes with truth. Truth is. It can neither be lost nor sought nor found. It is there, wherever you are, being within you (T-14.VII.2:1-4).
A Course in Miracles truly asks nothing more from us than that we be willing to allow the Holy Spirit to remove “the blocks to the awareness of love’s presence” which we are assured is our “natural inheritance.”
It is helpful in this regard to remember that a primary model for the Course is psychotherapy. We don’t enter the psychotherapist’s office so that we can laugh and socialize and brag on our wellness. We go because we recognize that we are not functioning well and we need help in sorting it all out so that we can function better.
We are not students of the Course so that life will be light and angels and merriment. We are students because we are committed to raising our multitudinous illusions to the light of healing – and this is hard work and it is painful work.
I am not saying there are not happy moments. There are. Nor am I saying that from time to time we won’t notice that life seems to be improving – getting clearer, simpler, lighter and so forth. It will and we’ll notice. There is a lot for which to be grateful.
But this aspect of undoing illusion remains the cornerstone of what we are doing. Seeing illusions can be quite a challenge: it is a question of seeing the specific ways in which we are greedy and dishonest and lazy. It is a question of making contact over and over with the guilt and fear that drives our egoic behavior.
Yet the assurance inherent in the Course is that once seen, the illusion is undone, and that the undoing is in fact a very gentle process (T-14.IX.3:2).
There is no substitute for truth. And truth will make this plain as you are brought into the place where you must meet with you truth . . . What disappears in light is not attacked. It merely vanishes because it is not true (T-14.VIII.4:1-2, T-14.IX.2:4-5).
The temptation is to see oneself as a noble sojourner on the path to truth. That is a nice image and a good story. Both the egoic self and the world the egoic self made approve of that image and story. Lifetimes pass in its telling.
But sooner or later that sojourner realizes he is not getting anywhere, and that he’s not as happy as he pretends to be. That is when the real work becomes possible. That is when we retire from the circuitous path that goes nowhere and give up the images of ourselves that stand like heavy veils before God.
We turn, then, to the Holy Spirit – the healed mind that remembers God – and daily ask for help in being honest as we seek that which impedes Truth. And as each block is slowly dredged to the surface, it is gently undone. The light of Truth clarifies; the song of Oneness grows stronger and healing is the sure result.