To seek God is to know God or, put another way, we can only seek God – can only long for divine union, knowledge of that-which-is – because we already know God, have already sipped from the heavenly stream, reclined in the sacred rays, danced in the sacred center of the Absolute.
It is important to be clear about this – to give attention to it – because there is great comfort in it, great peace. The end of seeking is the end of conflict. Can we desire a meal that we have never tasted before, of which we have never seen a photograph nor heard a word, have never read about? We can’t. What the mind does not know, the mind cannot long for.
It is the same with God – what we are calling God, but which in truth goes without a name, because to call it this is to separate it from that, and it is both those things and the space in which those things exist, and the space in which they cease to exist as well. “I am the first, and I am the last; and beside me there is no God” (Isaiah 44:6). That is not a statement of supremacy based on exclusivity; rather, it is a celebration of inclusivity. Nothing is that isn’t God.
When we decide in advance that awakening must include this feature and that feeling, or that knowledge of God is going to have these qualities but not those – then it’s like we are studiously looking at our feet and wondering why we can’t see a rainbow.
So when we miss God – when we lament our separation from God – we are not really complaining that we don’t know God. We do know God – we could not miss God otherwise, could not otherwise identify a seeming separation.
What we lament, rather, is our apparent confusion – forgetfulness, denial – about our knowledge of God. But that is simply a question of thought careening around its miserly vaults, repeating the same old relativism and dualism. Semantics can clear it up for us. The mind that misses God, knows God, and the mind that knows God has all the God there is – right here, right now – because there is nothing else.
If we can say it, then we can stop pretending it’s not true, and give attention to the fact of it – the nowness of it, the hereness of it.
It is so clear and simple! But we don’t want to see it! And then when we do, we are apt to be disappointed. Where is my light show? That eternal state of peace and happiness?
But you see, when we partition God or reality – when we decide in advance that awakening must include this feature and that feeling, or that knowledge of God is going to have these qualities but not those – then it’s like we are studiously looking at our feet and wondering why we can’t see a rainbow.
God is not separate from anything. Accept that you know this and instantly “you will recognize yourself, and see your little garden transformed into the Kingdom of Heaven, with all the Love of its Creator shining upon it” (T-18.VIII.10:4).
The Thought of God surrounds your little kingdom, waiting at the barrier you built to come inside and shine upon the barren ground. See how life springs up everywhere! The desert becomes a garden, green and deep and quiet, offering rest to those who lost their way and wander in the dust (T-18.VIII.9:1-3).
So there is nothing to seek, and no journey to undertake, because we already know. It’s already done. We are the home we are looking for. Illusions to the contrary are simply the brain skidding along in its evolutionary groove of duality, bent on dead ends it insists are life.
I am saying there is a way to get this – to give attention to it – and to know peace. Not as an accomplishment but as a condition of what we are in Truth. It is not a doing but an awareness: it is truly in the nature of looking within, where the gift is given, where knowledge of God resides.
Not one light in Heaven but goes with you. Not one Ray that shines forever in the Mind of God but shines on you . . . (T-18.III.8:1-2).
One of the loveliest aspects of A Course in Miracles is its insistence that this knowledge – this remembering – this undoing of what never was – is accomplished with our brothers and sisters. Understand this literally! I am with you as you are with me and we are in motion – are in Truth – together.
You and your brother are coming home together, after a long and meaningless journey that you undertook apart, and that led nowhere. You have found your brother, and you will light each other’s way. And from this light will the Great Rays extend back into darkness and forward unto God, to shine away the past and so make room for His eternal Presence, in which everything is radiant in the light (T-18.III.8:5-7).
No other light – no other plan or companion or way – is needed . . .