To study A Course in Miracles is to agree to live by internal rather than external principles. That which is external fosters darkness and obscurity. The internal, under the guidance of the Holy Spirit, brings light and clarity. This is what it means to be open – we allow the light of understanding, even if just one beam at a time, to illuminate our perfection as Creations of God.
The quiet light in which the Holy Spirit dwells within you is merely perfect openness, in which nothing is hidden and therefore nothing is fearful. Attack will always yield to love if it brought to love, not hidden from it (T-14.VI.2:1-2).
It is our inclination to hide that perpetuates fear. The external world is a darkness into which we have projected all those things that we are unwilling to claim as our own. When we live by the world’s standards, we make ourselves servants of a destructive illusion whose only goal is to keep us from remembering God. Is this really what we want?
Yet we cannot fight the world, any more than we can fight the ego! What we engage with in battle – whether the conflict takes the form of seeking win-win solutions, or trying to bring others around to our “right” way of thinking, or trying to eradicate altogether – we are tacitly acknowledging our capacity to be hurt. And having accepted that fundamental weakness, we then take it upon ourselves to “defend” against injury. It doesn’t work.
So we have to let go of that which is outside us. We have to trust that nothing God creates can be threatened. And that trusting is an internal action. Nothing that is external can bring us to that peace, that quiet faith.
You have regarded the separation as a means for breaking your communication with your Father. The Holy Spirit reinterprets it as a means of re-establishing what was not broken, but has been made obscure (T-14.VI.5:1-2).
And so there is this turning inward. For example, when anger appears we don’t relate to it at the level of the world – the person or circumstances apparently giving rise to it. We relate internally, through the Holy Spirit. This means that we don’t reject the anger, or explain the anger, or justify the anger, or hide the anger, or deny the anger or minimize the anger. We simply allow it a place in the light where the Holy Spirit can reinterpret it.
We have trained ourselves to see the external world as the cause of what happens to us. Even after we’ve been with the Course a bit, this remains our default position. It is quite deep-rooted and should not be underestimated. The shift to a new way of thinking – a radical way of thinking – takes time. We have to both vigilant and patient.
Yet by insisting on openness – by directing our practice to this end – we can experience the grace of God.
It is possible because you want it. The sudden expansion of awareness that takes place with your desire for it is the irresistible appeal the holy instant holds. It calls you to be yourself, within its safe embrace. There are the laws of limit lifted for you, to welcome you to openness of mind and freedom. Come to this place of refuge where you can be yourself in peace. Not through destruction, not through a breaking out, but merely by a quiet melting in (T-18.VI.14:1-6).
This is the process then. We are letting go of what is external and false in order to live by the truth of what is internal and real. Nothing else works because there is nothing else. The Holy Spirit is not separate from you anymore than God is. Let go of the idea that there is anything “out there.” Let go of the idea of “somewhere else” altogether. What you need is what you already are: light itself, the encompassing awareness in which nothing is hidden and so nothing is without meaning. You cannot help but discover the Truth.