My grievances hide the light of the world in me.
This is one of those dig deep/go deep lessons. We’re not messing around with little solutions to daily challenges here. We’re aiming to drop past all the chatter that tends to occupy our lives and get right to God. This lesson is about real contact with the real, and it doesn’t want to accept anything less.
It is easy to dilute A Course in Miracles. I do it. Lots of people do it. We get focused on the happy dream. Or we just keep it shallow and simple, taking the uplifting notes without paying attention to the real inner work that attends that uplift. And Jesus knows this, of course. It’s part of being human, this inclination to find short cuts, to avoid strenuous paths.
So these lessons show up, not because it’s a sure thing that we’re going to break through to God – we might but we might not, too – , but because we need to be reminded from time to time about the stakes for which we’re playing. In the end, we are students of A Course in Miracles not because we want more sparkly lives for ourselves, but because we want – literally – to save the world.
This lesson is about salvation because that’s what ACIM is about. And if we really believe that, our practice is going to reflect it. We’re going to work at it. Not because we’re supposed to suffer and labor in vain, but because we want the real joy that comes with doing the real work.
If you look closely at the language of the lesson, you’ll see that Jesus is way less concerned about whether we reach that inner light, than he is that we simply take the process of searching for it seriously.
Have confidence in your Father today, and be certain that He has heard you and answered you. You may not recognize his answer yet, but you can indeed be sure that it is given you and you will yet receive it . . . Try to keep the thought in mind that what you undertake with God must succeed (W-pI.69.8:1-2, 5).
The success, by the way, is no doing of ours. It is the natural result of letting “the power of God work in you and through you, that His will and yours be done (W-pI.69.8:6). Really, we are moving beyond what we think we are by allowing the reality of what we are take its place. This is the movement of God, the activity of God, and our sole contribution is our willingness that it happen.
When we really face up to salvation, we begin to see how compromised our willingness is. We begin to see how hard we are working against letting God into our lives. And so we begin – grudgingly, haltingly, nervously – allowing a softening to take place. We begin to open up so that the memory of God can enter in. Nothing is more important in our lives. The sooner we accept this as our only function, the sooner we will be restored to our real identity – and the world will be there with us.