A Course in Miracles Lesson 198

Only my condemnation injures me.

The power of belief is such that we can believe that we are vulnerable to injury; the evidence that we do believe this is evident in our condemnation of our brothers and sisters. They are dangerous, aggressive, selfish, and untrustworthy. And yet, we receive what we offer. As we condemn – as we make the illusion of separate interests appear real with real effects – we are in turn condemned.

Condemn and you are made a prisoner. Forgive and you are freed. Such is the law that rules perception (W-pI.198.2:1-3).

Yet perception’s “laws” are illusory. To believe them is to believe a lie. Therefore, in truth, condemnation is impossible. Yet so long as we believe in it, then it is real for us. Hence the need for forgiveness.

A Course in Miracles – and the practice of forgiveness informing it – is itself an illusion wielded by the Holy Spirit in the context of separation that our willingness to indulge illusion at all might be undone.

Forgiveness sweeps all other dreams away, and though it is itself a dream, it breeds no others. All illusions save this one must multipy a thousandfold. But this is where illusions end. Forgiveness is the end of dreams, because it is a dream of waking (W-pI.198.3:1-4).

Forgiveness – and that which is perceived under its influence – is not truth itself, but rather points to what is true, including to God, with a certainty that cannot be denied. It is the illusion that ends our dependence on illusions and on the thinking that makes illusions appear so real.

Given this means of salvation, why do we not avail ourselves of it? Why do we insist on suffering when perfect happiness and peace are offered without condition or qualification?

Fun questions we could spend a lot of time answering! Yet this lesson invites us not to analyze that question, nor to descend into intellectuality, but rather to answer it once and for all in experience. It is always tempting to use the intellect to tease apart of the meaning of the words, to explore the myriad possibilities they entail, to take notes and draw maps, to study and brainstorm, ever deepening understanding . . .

It is not a crime against God or nature to play with language this way! Analysis is not forbidden! But there is a space in which the intellect avails us nothing, and some other means of understanding and acting must be evoked. As Abhishiktananda said, logos (language and logic) get us to the entrance of the Cave to the Heart but they do not help us enter. At the mout of the cave, some other force or energy is required, one that is far beyond the domain of reason and language.

A Course in Miracles does not denigrate the difficult experience of believing separation is real and thereby suffering its apparent effects. We are haunted, yes. We fear there is no mercy anywhere. We believe in death and dread hell.

And yet.

The stillness of your Self remains unmoved, untouched by thoughts like these, and unaware of any condemnation which could need forgiveness . . . today we practice letting freedom come to make its home with you (W-pI.198.8:1, 9:1).

We are offered a simple prayer. Simple, that is, to understand. But difficult – murderously difficult – to practice.

Only my condemnation injures me.
Only my own forgiveness sets me free
(W-pI.198.9:3-4).

A Course in Miracles invites us – begs us, really – to “accept one illusion which proclaims there is no condemnation in God’s Son,” which naturally restores Heaven to our shared awareness, and unveils the Christ, all in one fell swoop (W-pI.198.10:1).

This is the gift the Holy Spirit holds for you from God your Father. Let today be celebrated both on earth and in your holy home as well. Be kind to Both, as you forgive the trespasses you thought Them guilty of, and see your innocence shining upon you from the face of Christ (W-pI.198.10:2-4).

When we accept this gift – when we are even willing to consider accepting the gift – then the Word of God echoes in our heart and spreads a soft light over the world. It is no longer possible to fear nor doubt; we reject no brother or sister. Our joy becomes literal connectedness, literal union, with all of life, illuminated by our sincere desire to celebrate our holiness in and with it.

This celebration is the final instant of perception. For in it, all symbols are undone, and all that remains is the Mind of God which knows its Creations as one with Itself.

There is no condemnation in him. He is perfect in his holiness. . . . In this vision of the Son, so brief that not an instant stands between this single sight and timelessness itself, you see the vision of yourself, and then you disappear forever into God (W-pI.198.12:1-2, 6).

This is the future; this has not yet occurred. We are not ready. But we are given the means by which to bring it as close to us as the next breath. Let us pray together, and let nothing come between us to disturb the stillness that we share as Christ.

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The Twenty-Ninth Principle of A Course in Miracles

Miracles praise God through you. They praise Him by honoring His creations, affirming their perfection. They heal because they deny body-identification and affirm spirit-identification (T-1.I.29:1-3).

Yet the miracle does not merely transform us as individuals; it does not induce forms of healing that reinforce the experience of separation under a guise of healing. Their capacity for healing includes our brothers and sisters by definition. To leave anyone out would no longer be love (e.g. T-7.V.5:7). To be miraculous is to be -by definition – communal. It takes two to be one.

Inclusion is used here as a form of love. We honor our brothers and sisters – we respect them and love them – because they are God’s creations. It’s not because of what they do or don’t do, say or don’t say. It’s because of their Source, which we cannot see apart from them. The Source and its effects are one. Critically, our recognition of our brothers and sisters as Creations of God – which is their relationship with God – is simultaneously our recognition of our relationship with God.

In this way, miracles unite us directly with all our brothers and sisters (T-1.II.3:6), without exception or condition. A Course in Miracles is clear and unwavering: miracles are “a sign of love among equals” (T-1.II.3:4).

God’s creations are perfect because they exist in perfect communion with their Creator; we are not made in the image of the physical but of the spiritual. Perfection does not have a form. Miracles heal precisely because they correct the misperceptions of ego, the false belief that we are bodies, forms in any way, which belief is what separates us from our true nature (which is formless), and thus from Creation itself (which is formlessness).

Thus, the healing that miracles bring forth always includes a realized shift in identity away from the physical and towards the spiritual. We realize that we are not bodies, and that our brothers and sisters are not bodies either, which is what ensures our total equality and our total freedom.

By affirming our fundamentally spiritual nature, miracles remind us of our inherent wholeness, which is untouched by the fears, guilt and other limitations that are hallmark effects of separation, our experience of being bodies in a world.

Again, the miracle is a shift in identification away from that level of experience. It does not denigrate experiece; it does not oppose experience. Rather, it teaches us how to see beyond experience to what God creates endlessly perfectly. This shift in seeing benefits all our brothers and sisters because we are united in the correction of the mistaken belief that a mind can exist apart from its Creator. There is nothing left to separate.

Finally, it can be helpful to remember that miracles are forms of praise – they praise God and Creation by recognizing in all things only wholeness, and the light in which wholeness is made real for us. They praise God and Creation because they are the Source in which the cosmos and all life are brought forth and have their meaning.

The Twenty-Eighth Principle of A Course in Miracles

Miracles are a way of earning release from fear. Revelation induces a state in which fear has already been abolished. Miracles are thus a means and revelation is an end (T-1.I.28:1-3).

Use of the word “earning” here is distracting – it implies contingency. If I do this, then God will do that. And God does not work that way. God does not bargain or set conditions.

Rather, it is helpful to think that miracles are the means by which release from fear is experienced in a context of separation. Fear is not real; yet our belief in separation causes it to seem very real indeed. The miracle penetrates our erroneous belief in separation and fear, and induces as much healing – as much love – as we are capable of accepting in that moment.

Bargaining and negotiation never enter into it. Quid pro quo never enters into it.

Still, miracles are a means to an end, where the end is a personal experience of revelation, which “reflects the original form of communication between God and His creations, involving the extremely personal sense of creation sometimes sought in physical relationships (T-1.II.1:2).

Revelation is temporary but, in that state, fear is completely abolished. In that state, there is total realization of oneness with God, which is our true identity. In bodies, revelation comes and goes. That to which it unerringly points does not.

In this sense, A Course in Miracles breaks with much of traditional Christianity. In ACIM, revelation is a direct experience of unity with God; it is not an exchange of information, resulting in updated scripture or other texts. It is more in the nature of a cosmic hug in which the belief system underlying dualism dissolves. We remember what we are in truth and so we are in truth. We remember God and our self simultaneously because they cannot be otherwise remembered.

Always, the focus in ACIM is on our personal interior transformation in the context of separation. We move from separated beings alone in the cosmos, pitted against fate and doomed to suffer and die, all the way to Christ, in which the knowledge that Love holds everything naturally brings about the end of doubt and fear. This transformation is reflected in our acceptance of Love over fear, which is the very experience the miracle induces. And our living changes – it softens, becomes gentler and kinder, more open and more welcoming – accordingly.

Transformation as induced by the study and practice of A Course in Miracles is not a matter of attainment. It’s not something we get, much less something we can sell. It doesn’t separate us from others; it joins us. There is nothing special about the one who experiences the miracle. And in revelation, there is no individual at all to subsequently claim some special insight or gift as a result of the revelation.

Indeed the focus of the miracle is in undoing any egoic inclination to specialness or uniqueness for any reason whatsoever. As the eighteenth principle of miracles makes clear, miracles establish our equality before and as God. There is no difference anywhere to be found, within or without.

The Twenty-Seventh Principle of A Course in Miracles

A miracle is a universal blessing from God through me to all my brothers. It is the privilege of the forgiven to forgive (T-1.I.27:1-2).

Miracles extend through Jesus to all the world, which makes clear the interconnectedness of all life without consideration of the limits imposed by space and time. Jesus blesses us now; Christs to come bless us now. And we are the means by which the miracle is extends, throughout time and space, ultimately transcending both. Without us there are no miracles, and without miracles there is no blessing to be shared.

We are in this together and together we are one.

The principle makes clear that forgiveness – which, because it is informed by miracles, creates miracles – is a gift from God to us. As we remember our nature in and as Creation, we naturally extend that remembance to our brothers and sisters. We remember the cause for peace together, and we become happy together. Forgiveness is fundamentally a shared experience. It is an illusion of unity that undoes the need for any other illusion.

“Privilege” is an interesting word in this context. It comes from the Latin for privacy and law, essentially suggesting that our personal transformation from fear-based thinking to love – which is the deeply intimate and restorative experience of joining with the Holy Spirit where and as we are now – sets in us a resonsibility for sharing. It confirms that healing, in order be healing, must be shared. It is a privilege to know this, and the privilege inspires us to share it.

Note that this is the first moment in A Course in Miracles where Jesus assumes the first person (though, for what it is worth, it is not the first time Jesus used the first person in early drafts of the material). The effect of this lexical choice is nontrivial. Relationship with Jesus is essential to our program of salvation. It is in that relationship that our right relationship to Creation and, by extension, to God, is established and clarified.

The miracle is a sign that the mind has chosen to be led by me in Christ’s service. The abundance of Christ is the natural result of choosing to follow Him. All shallow roots must be uprooted, because they are not deep enough to sustain you (T-1.V.6:1-3).

One way or the other, as students of the course, we are required to come to terms with the personal and confidential tone the course takes as the direct sharing of the historical Jesus. Believe it or don’t believe it – contextualize it any way you want – but don’t avoid it.

We have a function in salvation: we are called to love in a loveless place, to accept the Atonement for our own selves, and to become responsible for the end of projection. Collectively, these actions bring forth healing. The blessing is given to all, but we receive it one by one. It is by facing Jesus directly that we realize the personal application A Course in Miracles intends for its students. We realize the form it takes in our lives, and we commit to that form with devotion and hope.

A Course in Miracles meets us where we are, but it is incumbent on us to meet the course as well, and to go with it as far as the Holy Spirit invites us to go. This is not merely “paying salvation forward” or even “back.” Rather, it is the living embodiment of healing in our lives in the world. Application, not theory, is the way that we remember God.

The Twenty-Sixth Principle of A Course in Miracles

Miracles represent freedom from fear. “Atoning” means “undoing.” The undoing of fear is an essential part of the Atonement value of miracles (T-1.I.26.1-3).

The shift in perception that the miracle creates in our mind is always a shift away from fear and towards love. The actual move may be only incidental or appear insignificant. It doesn’t matter. As the first principle of miracles makes clear, “all expressions of love are maximal” (T-1.I.1:4).

Fear and love both appear to us as potential responses in the world. What A Course in Miracles does is invite us to remember that only one of them is actually a real option; the other is an illusion. Therefore, what a miracle does us undo our belief in the unreal, in order to demonstrate that love, not fear in its myriad forms, is our true inheritance (T-in.1:7).

It is in this sense that the Atonement is fundamentally an “undoing.” It changes our mind. It is the active process of correction, which undoes illusion in the present, in order to reveal what was always true, and cannot be otherwise. Atonement clarifies our thinking so that we can know the love of God without the detour into fear manifesting as body-in-world. Without miracles – which are the activity of Atonement – our understanding and practice of Atonement would devolve in rules for behavior, rather than rules for decision.

Decisions are continuous. You do not always know when you are making them. But with a little practice with the ones you recognize, a set begins to form which will see you through the rest. It is not wise to let yourself become preoccupied with every step you take (T-30.I.1:1-4).

This means that in any given situation which feels unmanageable to us – be it a conflict with a family member, an addiction in the body, or an existential crisis in the mind – as ACIM students we are less concerned with updating our behavioral posture in the world, and more interested in undoing the conditions in our mind which led to the error (and its effects) in the first place. By all means go to a twelve-step meeting or take an aspirin. But don’t mistake those actions for healing the sickness of separation; they merely redress some of the symptoms.

Thus, often, our “practice” of A Course in Miracles involves sitting quietly and giving attention to what is, without judgment, without imposing any qualification or condition upon it (which impositions are always attempts to bring past and future into the present in order to minimize its healing effects). When we are still like this, we are able to give attention to the Holy Spirit and allow Him to work in our lives. Childhood memories, workplace drama, family behavioral pattners . . . the Holy Spirit disentangles all of them from what we think we are, thus allowing what we truly are to come forth in the manner of a light.

The dark journey is not the way of God’s Son. Walk in light and do not see the dark companions, for they are not fit companions for the Son of God, who was created of light and in light. The Great Light always surrounds you and shines out from you (T-11.III.4:5-7).

This divine psychotherapy with the Holy Spirit as our therapist is always ongoing, and it is always healing. Sometimes we call this “miracle-minded thinking” or “right-minded thinking.” What we call it doesn’t matter, so long as we are doing it.

Miracles are both causes and effects of miracle-minded thinking, which is always about getting out of our own way in order to allow the Holy Spirit to heal us by restoring to our awareness what we are in Truth, which is beyond the need for healing, because it cannot be other that perfectly whole. This is natural but not easy because we have trained ourselves away from what is natural. Separation takes effort.

This remembrance occurs in time and by degrees. Yet as it gathers strength in us, we learn to trust it. We lean into it. And the further we lean, the more it holds and sustains us, thus enabling even more trust and healing. In this way, Atonement saves us by pointing out that we do not need – and never did need – saving.

The Twenty-Fifth Principle of A Course in Miracles

Miracles are part of an interlocking chain of forgiveness which, when completed, is the Atonement. Atonement works all the time and in all the dimensions of time (T-1.I.25:1-2).

Forgiveness here refers to right seeing. It refers to the process of correction in our minds, whereby perception is aligned with reality – with Creation as created – to the maximal extent possible.

Miracles facilitate this process by effectively cleansing our minds of error, especially in the very contexts that we find ourselves. So if there is a dispute in our life, or if there is a grievance or a conundrum, then the miracle is what heals that. And the healing is not necessarily about fixing what is external, but rather seeing clearly the nature of our relationship to the external.

Forgiveness allows us to be in right relationship with the external world by making clear that nothing external can truly harm us or help us, which is an extension of “nothing real can be threatened/nothing unreal exists” (T-in.2:2-3).

Love holds no grievances. When I let all my grievances go I will know I am perfectly safe (W-pI.68.6:8-9).

Thus, miracles are not necessarily experienced as comforting, at least not at first. In fact, we may experience them as discomforting, because they shift our thinking away from the familiar (which is ego, which is dominanted by fear and chaos, and whose logic is misdirection). It is important to never underestimate our desire to remain in familiar patterns, even when they damage us and others.

This is another way of saying that we are accustomed to separation, and it takes time and energy to investigate it in a truly healing way, a way that undoes separation and its effects.

The references to time in this principle have to do both with the experience of Atonement in time – e.g., I have to study A Course in Miracles, I have to practice forgiveness, I have to go to therapy and do yoga, I have to avoid using food as a defense against feeling, et cetera. These encompass the so-called life hacks that can be very helpful in our acceptance of the Atonement for ourselves.

But the principle also – especially in the phrase “dimensions of time” – makes clear that the Atonement transcends our limited ideas about what we are and what the world is. Atonement can heal the past in the present; it can heal the future in the present, and it does all this by restoring the present to our awareness.

When we are fully capable of living only in the present moment, which the Course calls the holy instant, then we recognize the way in which time is a construct – it is always relative to an observer, to an ego – and it becomes easier for us to perceive it as a construct and find out what lies beyond it.

This is a statement about experience; it is not a supernatural promise. There are no mysteries that A Course in Miracles is given to solve. It is not introducing us to some supernatural codex containing the secrets of the universe.

Rather, it restores to memory our true self, in a way that cashes out in awakening from the dream of separation. Once awakened – once knowing oneself only in terms of Atonement – then the need for time and learning end.

That we are not there yet is not a problem; it is not a crime against God or nature. Instead, it is an opportunity to embrace uncertainty and imperfection, and to accept without qualification or condition experience as it is given to us.

When we look at our lives without judgment – or, rather, with the judgment of the Holy Spirit rather than ego – then we are relieved of the need to do anything. Seeing clearly liberates us; we realize that all the anxiety and fear and guilt we have been experiencing are contingent on a way of seeing ourselves and the world that is wrong. So we let it go.

And so we agree to be healed – we agree to see with the Holy Spirit and not with the ego. And if we don’t know how to do that, then we agree to learn. Willingness, not accomplishment, is the hallmark of the miracle-minded. Nothing else becomes us.