Miracles are seen in light, and light and strength are one.
Sometimes the ACIM workbook takes a big leap. You’re cruising along and then it drops a metaphysical bomb. It says something like, “you’re kidding yourself if you think the body’s eyes can see or its brain think.” And maybe you feel like Wile E. Coyote when he goes racing off a cliff. What? There’s nothing under me?
I have to breathe sometimes. I have to remind myself it’s not about understanding so much as being gentle and kind – to others and to myself. I have to remember that the so-called leaps are nothing to the Holy Spirit. What is fearful in me is not me – it’s simply an idea with which I am much enamored. But it’s dispensable. It’s not the truth. I don’t have to understand this or that lesson – I can even actively resist understanding it – so long as I just patiently keep at it, as best I can. That’s all that’s asked of us. A little willingness.
And then a little light shines in. I can spend twenty minutes in quiet prayer and realize that there is some strength in me that does not seem to be of me. I can’t explain it, I can’t do a whole lot with it and I can’t call upon it at will (yet) but it’s there. What is it? Call it God. Call it God’s will. Call it Source. It doesn’t matter to me. It’s good to make contact with it, even fleetingly.
The idea of strength matters, because we need some confidence from time to time. We need to face what feels impossible with a sense that we aren’t alone, that we aren’t bereft. Without that, maybe we would give up, or our practice grow so faint as to be all but useless. Some days I can’t deal with a thought system that discounts my physical eyes. That’s okay. God is strong enough to roll with that. I am too.
In general, light in the course has to do with understanding. It has to do with clarity – the capacity of the mind to clear so that insight can readily dawn. We aren’t awaiting light shows – our own spiritual Las Vegas – so much as allowing ourselves to be emptied of chatter and darkness. As much as possible, we are releasing guilt and fear and anger. And in their wake, there is some openness in which we “see” the justification for trust and faith.
I like strength as a metaphor because it makes clear that this “seeing” that we are talking about is not passive. It’s active, albeit in a different way than that to which we are accustomed. It has an element of will to it. It is making a choice, a decision. Even if the choosing is dim, it is still an affirmation of both the desire to see and the recognition that seeing is necessary.
So, as always, the course lessons are deepening our understanding, leading us gently closer to that state of mind that knows no lack. This one feels like a real jump off the bridge, and maybe it is. Maybe for you it’s simple and straightforward. But none of that really matters, so much as simply showing up and doing it.